Don’t I Feel Like An Idiot

I rarely made mention to the fact that since my throat surgery I’ve been texting with a guy I met from POF. We ended up having one date that consisted of going to the movies and talking afterwards. He knew about my throat surgery and lack of a voice and assured me that it was no big deal. The date went fine (I thought anyways) and we continued to text each other.

Afterwards, I casually mentioned if he wanted to go out again. I did this twice and both times he agreed but then something always came up. The first time was with work, so I figured I would let it go. My mother has always told me that I’m too negative and sometimes work can get in the way of things, so I tried to brush off the feeling that he was blowing me off and just figured that work sometimes gets in the way. The second time I really started to think he was blowing me off. Even though he assured me after the first missed second date that he wasn’t. Something just wasn’t sitting right with me. I should really look into working with an injury lawyers uk firm because I’m pretty good at reading people, and I could totally tell he was bullshitting me. I’m also pretty good at dealing with injuries on a daily basis – just ask my students. They fall all the time. Or my family. I’m a huge klutz. Anyways, I again chose to ignore the fact that he was brushing me off. Keep in mind our texting conversations were not like they use to be. So all this combined is what made me think that he wasn’t interested, but like my mother said, I’m too negative sometimes. So finally I figured I would just give it one more shot, and if it was the third strike then I would consider it done and just let it be.

So this past Wednesday I stupidly asked again. My sister told me that I should wait till he asked, but I had a feeling he wouldn’t so I did. I suggested we go to a Blue Jay’s game on Sunday since earlier in our texting conversation he had made mention that he would take me. He said yes and by Friday our texting conversation was back to normal. I figured that maybe he wasn’t working and he had more time to text, which is why we were texting so much. It’s a logical thing to think, I think.

So during our Friday texting he casually suggested that he drive to my place Saturday evening and crash here since we would have to leave early Sunday to catch the GO Train. I thought it was a fine idea, I figured he wanted to spend more time with me. So I okayed it and we continued texting like before.

Fast forward to Saturday and I’m at Cassie’s for her son’s 3rd birthday. I sent a good morning text and asked what he was up to, then double checked to see if we were still on for that evening. That’s when I received a text basically telling me that I’m a nice girl, but there is no solid connection and there’s no point in going on a date if there wont be any dating afterwards. (How do you tell if there’s a connection after 1 date?, and what about all the texting we’ve been doing. That counts for nothing I guess.)

I pretty much ignored the text for the remained of the birthday party, and then afterwards once I was home I asked what had changed from Friday to Saturday. He had said that he wasn’t interested from the get go basically and finally realized that he was leading me on so he decided to bail. That’s when I told him that he should have told me from the beginning and that I would have stop bugging him, and that I had a feeling all along. He actually responded that I wasn’t bugging him and that he liked talking to me, (UM WHAT??…and he said there was no connection?) but he just wasn’t feeling it. So I pretty much explained that it’s now weird for me because I like him, and the feelings not mutual.

So obviously enough we aren’t going to the Blue Jay’s game today and I feel like a total idiot because I had this gut feeling that he wasn’t into me and I just chose to ignore per my mothers request and the amount of texting that were were doing.

I’m also annoyed because in our many texting conversations it had come up that I think ignoring a girl or telling her you aren’t interested by texting is a horrible thing to do, and he actually agreed. I figured a phone call is a lot better, but looks like he followed the ways of every other guy I’ve gone out with.

So there you have it. I chose to ignore my gut feeling per my mothers advice and stupidly let myself believe that he was actually into me…..Story of my life